My First Book In English

Hmmmm... I really don't remember. I guess it was Shakespear's "Macbeth" or "Hamlet". Anyway it was a challenge 'cause I didn't know English as good as now. I read too many books to remember which one was 1st. To be honest I read a lot. I read everytime I can, in a bus, tram, train, milk bars. Everywhere I can. And I read everything I get in my hands :) Romances, comedies, fantasy, horrors, comic books, everything! Just can't help it. And it's all my moms fault ;). But I'm thankful for that. Ech, those nights spent on reading :).

Lizzie West "Prayer"

"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that flow
I am the sunlight on my own grave

I am a gentle autumn rain
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight

do not stand at my grave and cry
do not stand at my grave and cry
do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there I did not die

(Spoken)
man as yet is half grown
Even his flower stem has not appeared yet
He’s all leaves and roots without a sign of stem in sight
Blossoming, establishing a new pure relationship with the cosmos
It is the sign of heaven.
It’s the sign of the cobra.
It’s the sign of a man who knows himself royally.
Crowned with the sun.
His feet gripping the earth as he goes.
We have arrived.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there I did not die.
I am not there I did not die."

I love listenig to it when I'm in a sleepy and melancholic mood :). It cheers my up though it might seem strange. :)

Everyday Life

1. Nora,my dog,sick now and I'm eating my nails so nervous I am. Damn she's with me for 15 years!!! I can't lose her! Who will then jump into my bed at nightr, wake me up at 3 to go out for a walk or stink?? We'll see...
2. I thought I met the person of my life and then... "I have somebody".Why do I always have such a bad luck in love?? What's wrong with me?? Grrrrrrrr. Well I'll keep looking, there r a lot of fish in the sea :). Buahahahahaha.
3. Just to have # 3 :P

V for Vendetta

I have finally seen "V for Vendetta". Hmmm don't know what 2 think 'bout it. For sure comic book was better, more complex and dark but still it's a good movie. From 1-6 i'll give it 4. Hugo Weaving can kill you with his voice. He's like Alan Rickman. Two guys that can play with voice. Natalie Portman?? Hmmm I'm not objective but she was perfect (as usual). Still like her more with hair than without :). The movie itself has a lot of action and the scene with blowing the Parliament up is incredible. Really worth seeing.

Bydgosc :)

After Bydgoszcz. It was a real hit!!! :) We've made a lot of mistakes but people didn't know 'bout it. :) After the performance there was a party. To be honest I'm a local star :). I got so many good opinions about the play and my role that I feel almost like Natalie Portman ;P. The only difference between us is that they don't pay me for playing :(. Anyway, me gonna go there next year and we're gonna crush them totally :) Buahahaha. Party was perfect, people were cool, JC came although he said he wouldn't and that is very good 'cause party without him would be incomplete :). I luv u all guys!!! :*

Lamb-Gabriel

I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
I can love
But I need his heart
I am strong even on my own
But from him I never want to part
He's been there since the very start
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
Bless the day he came to be
Angel's wings carried him to me
Heavenly
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel

That's the song that still gives me hope :)

So Long And Thanx For the Fish

So long and thanx for the fish. If only I had enough courage I'd do that. My moods are killing me. I laugh but then I suddenly feel down. I know what is wrong but I can't change it. Oh, well this was suppose to be a funny blog but it isn't. Maybe later. I promise to do my best. :)

Sadness

I feel terrible. I'm so stupid I just can believe it. Anyway, I don't care about anything. I just wanna dissapear or leave somwhere people don't know me. Nobody cares about me so why should I care about anything or anyone? I hide everything I am because of our so f*****g tolerant society, parents, school and so on... Damn I don't know what to do with myself. I know nothing and I just don't seem to care. School is no longer what it used to be. Or maybe I'm just overreacting. Nikt mnie nie kocha, nikt mnie nie lubi, nie mam przyjaciół, nawet pies do mnie nie przychodzi :(. I mean she comes but she stinks and deaf and sleeps all the time. Sorry for this pesimistic post but sometimes even optimistics have to rest and feel sad :).

Medusas Again

Well, my so long not seen medusas are finally back ;). They're on my cheeks and back. They itch and soon I think I'm gonna bite my... leg :D. I'm Going to Bydgoszcz next week and I have to get rid of them. Grrrrrr. I can have them on my legs but face? C'mon it's not fair!!!