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This one is dedicated to Yoko Ono :).
First Christmas on my blog and let's hope not the last one :).
Because of this special time I wish all of you a lot of happiness, very tasty karp and lots of presents under the Christmas tree.
Also, I wish u a lot of God's blessing, may He be with you all the time and help you everytime you need Him :).
So... Happy Christmas!!!
I was listening to that song and watching the video and I had no idea that one single video clip can cost so much! And it's true that they could use the money to help other. I realized how grateful I am to have a house, family, health care etc. there are people that don't even have running water and their houses are built of cardboard and wood.
Maybe we can change something. I can send one sms for 1.22pln and I won't think it's much but maybe because of that some kids will have Christmas this year or doctors will be able to heal them. I was very cynical when I saw celebrities starring in all those commercials but I guess they give us much as they can. People laugh when they hear that celebrities adopt children from poor coutries. Maybe they do it just to show-off but maybe they want to change somebody's life. If they can save one kid from dying of hunger so why not?
Poverty, starvation and wars will always exist but if it's possible to change at least something than I think we should try as much as we can. Cheers.
What do you think of it?
Well, it's my birthday today. Am I glad? Yeah! I guess I'm the only person that is happy of getting older :).
Did I change a bit during this year? Maybe a little, but not very much. I don't know if it's good or not but I'll try to be better. There's been ups and downs - mostly downs - but I'm optimistic so it's cool, it'll get better next year :). Yeah, I guess I'm still good ol' Karmen, nice but irresponsible, searching for something that may not exist.
Anyway, I'll see what happens in the next year. Maybe suddenly, I'll become famous and rich and go to Hollywood :P. Dreaming, dreaming... :). Cheers.
p.s. Thank you for the call. It was so good to hear your voice :).
On the right there's a link to a movie I made about my group from KJO :). I left a link in one of my posts but I decided that it will be easier to watch it if it's in links. Enjoy watching. Cheers :).
This is a bunch of links to videoclips on Youtube.
TRIBUTE TO NATALIE PORTMAN
I made this movie when I was bored and i realized i have lot od Nat pics on my disk. Instead of keeping them I decided to make a movie. So here it is :). OK, I'm nat's fan, can't help and you can laugh :P.
TRIBUTE TO ASIA ARGENTO
Another movie made by me. I just like her and I thought that the song fits her :)
SHAKIRA - TRANSLATION
It's Shakira's "Objection" parody. Hilarious! "cause me born in another nation".
BRITNEY & MADONNA - ME AGAINST THE MUSIC
Britney Spears's "Me Against Music" parody. Veeeery funny. Watch it!
UNKLE - BE THERE
Great video, and a bit scary I could say. Wow!
DIXIE CHICKS - TOP OF THE WORLD
Very sad song about a guy who sees his life and he would like to change something but it's too late to do so. Who knows if we won't end up like that, sitting in a chair thinking about our life...
DAMIEN RICE - 9 CRIMES
His new video from a new album :) I adore this guy. And this song rocks, thoug it's not optimistic.
Let me know what you think not only about my movies but also about the rest. Enjoy watching! Cheers.
You wanna feel special. You are special to me. You have no idea how grateful I am that you answered that day :). The funniest part is that I never believed in e-mails, communicators or smses but you proved me wrong. And now it’s like every day is becoming something new. I’m never bored with you, although you might be bored with me sometimes but it’s totally natural :).
It’s like in this song by Faithless “Miss you less, see you more, love to know you better”. Suddenly, out of nowhere, almost every song is about you. I don’t know how and why but that’s the way it is. Does it mean something? Maybe, but I don’t think it’s bad.
It’s only two weeks to see you again and it feels like two years to me. I made few mistakes and I want to fix them the best I can. I’m sure I will don’t worry. I learned my courage. Maybe not in everything but I’m trying my best.
felling warmth of your hand
that i didn't want to let go...
closing the door
taking the breath
watching you go
feeling never felt
i like the way you look at me
and i regret not doing one thing
although i promised...
It was awesome...it'll be better next time :)
This one is dedicated to you. Thanks to you this Sunday won't be forgotten :*
Darius - Colorblind - video
Feelin' blue
When I'm trying to forget this feeling
That I miss you
Feelin' green
When the jealousy swells and it won't
Go away in dreams
Feelin' yellow
I'm confused inside a little hazy but mellow
When I feel your eyes on me
Feelin' fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind
Oh oh
Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
You make me colour blind
Feelin' red
When you spend all your time with your friends
And not me instead
Feelin' black
When I think about all of the things that
I feel I lack
Feelin' jaded
When it's not gone right
All the colours have faded
Then I feel your eyes on me
Feelin' fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind
Oh oh
Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
You make me colour blind
Blinded by the light you shine
The colours fade completely
Blinded by you everytime
I feel your smile defeat me
I'm colour blind
I just can't deny this feelin'
Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
You make me colour blind
(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
You make me colour blind
(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind...
The video sucks, but the song is beautiful... Cheers.
Kiedy odejdziesz
A kiedy odejdziesz, zostawisz mnie samą
Zobaczysz jak kiedyś było nam dobrze.
Zapłaczę nad Tobą, utulę się w żalu
Nad rzeką Twoich i moich wspomnień.
I choć będziesz czekać, nie wrócę już nigdy,
Zostawię Ci kwiaty i kilka zdjęć.
wyjadę najdalej by nie być z Tobą
Choć będziesz płakać nie usłyszę nic.
I kiedy powrócę, odwiedzę Cię znowu.
Porozmawiamy jak kiedyś już
A później odejdę, zostawię Cię samą
Nad rzeką Twoich i moich snów....
God knows what this poem is about :). If you have an idea leave comment.
Ja
Ręce w kieszeni, schowane jakby przed światem
Wzrok wbity w zwykły miejski chodnik
Powolne kroki, pośpiech to bzdura
I wyraz oczu...
Bezdenny smutek przykryty radością
Schowany w duszy głęboko w sobie
I rana wciąż większa, sączy się gniew
na to kim jestem, co myślę i czuję
i gdyby tak zerwać z wiecznym milczeniem
niedomówienia ułożyć w zdania.
I czy gdybym mogła być jak reszta ludzi to..?
I wrote this poem when I was holplessly in love and I was pissed off :).
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Jak pęk kwiatów rzuconych na trumnę
Tak wspomnienia o tobie też zwiędły
Odeszły w niepamięć i tylko czasami
Wyrywają się na zewnątrz spragnione wody.
I wrote it when I fall out of love.
Dla Ciebie
A wiec przyszłaś dziś w nocy
Ubrana w białą sukienkę
Idąc przez korytarz
Wpatrując się przed siebie.
Zapukałaś do mych drzwi
I otwarłam je
Choć lękam się tak bardzo.
I usiadłaś przy mnie
Nie rzekłaś ni słowa
A twój dotyk tak palący
Zamroził mnie
I smak owocu
Co pachnie tak słodko
Że aż skosztowałam go z ochotą.
A potem wyszłaś
Zamykając drzwi za sobą
Bo wstawał już świt
Go figure it out :)
Dream Came True
The fire is burning
We're lost in the show
People are cheering
I don't feel fear.
The show is over
Their clapping their hands
I leave the stage
And hide to calm down
The fire's still burning
Don't want it to stop
But I have no choice
The show can't go on.
After my first kiss...
Free Zone
directed by: Amos Gitai
screenplay by: Amos Gitai & Marie-Jose Sanselme
starring:
Natalie Portman - Rebecca
Hanna Laszlo - Hanna
Hmmm…. My first impression after watching the movie? Too short. The movie that made me thinking. Why people from Israel and Palestine hate each other so much if they share the same problems? Can an ordinary person change something? My answer was no but you can try.
An Israeli woman, Hanna, is going through Palestine to Free Zone (it’s a neutral place between Syria, Saudi Arabia and Iraq) to get the money from American, who bought armored car her husband produces. A friend, young American Rebeka, is going with her after leaving her husband. This is just an ordinary trip but it leads through many problems.
The thing that struck me was that Israel and Palestine are not so different. People look similar, both countries are destroyed by an endless war, and everyone is trying to survive in this world. Hanna is sometimes rude but I guess that in such a world where everyday might be the last day she has to be tough.
All three characters, Hanna, Rebeka and Leila (who’s American’s wife and is traveling with Hanna to get the money for them) are so different but they have to cope with each other. Hanna, who is from Israel, doesn’t trust Leila, who’s Palestinian, and vice versa. The most opened is Rebeka, who’s American.
I really love the song that is at the beginning. Rebeka is sitting in car crying and looking through the window. For those 6 inutes I was thinking why is she crying. And I think she was crying over Israel, a country were she moved from New York, a country destroyed, a country where people are thought hatred to others. She thought of Israel as her home bur later she says that she’s gotta get out of this country. The song sung in Hebrew might sound stupid at the very beginning but the ending show what the song is really about.
The film is worth watching. It really made me thinking. And it made me sad, because this war will last as long as there is one Israelite and Palestinian alive. And this is the place where Christianity comes from… Cheers.
P.S. I left the words to the song in my previous post.
P.S.2. If you think roads in Poland suck, go to the Far East :)
My father bought it
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
My father bought it
For just two coins
As the Haggadah relates
Along came the cat
And ate up the lamb
The dog choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Along came the stick
To beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
That he bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Then came a fire
And burnt the stick
That beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Then water came
And quenched the fire
That burnt the stick
That beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Then came an ox and drank the water
That quenched the fire
That burnt the stick
That beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Along came a butcher and killed the ox
That drank the water
That quenched the fire
That burnt the stick
That beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought.
Then came the Angel of Death
And slew the butcher
Who killed the ox
That quenched the fire
That burnt the stick
That beat the dog
That choked the cat
That ate the lamb
That my father bought
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Why do you sing, little lamb?
Spring isn't yet here
And Passover neither
Have you changed?
I have changed this year
And every evening,
Like each evening,
I have only asked four questions
But, tonight,
I have thought of another question
How long will this circle of horror last?
Tonight, I have thought of another question
How long will this circle of horror last?
Of persecutor and persecuted,
Of executioner and victim
When will this madness end?
What has changed this year?
This year, I have changed
I was a meek lamb
I have become a tiger and a wild wolf
I was a dove, a gazelle
Today, I don't know who I am
My father bought it
For just two coins
The lamb! The lamb!
Our father bought it
For just two coins
And everything is starting again…
Lamb - Gabriel - this is a videoclip to one of my favourite songs ever. It's the first song I can listen to 24/7 and I'm not bored yet although I heard it about a year ago :). It's soft and brings such a peace... When I heard this song for the first tme I was shocked that somebody can sing so beautiful. Just listen and watch :) Cheers.
I've been watching "The Lake House" recently and I started to think is it possible to fell in love thru letters? Not knowing the person in real life, how he/she looks like... Do you think it's possible? Because I don't, but I may be wrong. Let me know what you think of it. Cheers.
I'm writing this post after reading Marta's comment on the last post "No title".
I am afraid. I am afraid that one day I will walk with my girl and hold her hand and somebody will attack us. And I'm not afraid that something might happen to me but to her.
I am angry that I'm living in a society that is so superficial.
I always thought that first you have to know somebody and than judge them. But unfortunatelly it's the other way around. Sometimes I think about my friends, who know, and it makes me feel a bit better that none of them rejected me, none of them told me "Karmen, you gotta do something about it 'cause the way you are is unacceptable". Even my friend, who is a priest, didn't tell me that and I'm very greatful for that because he showed me that he may not accept it as a priest but he likes me for being myself and being honest.
Telling people, who I am, is never easy and I am scared. Sometimes I lie at night in my bed and think why me? Maybe God wanted it, maybe I was born like that or maybe it's just my another stupid idea. I don't know. I know that I don't wanna change it.
And I'm tired of hiding it form people I love but I sipmly can't tell them. The thing is that it takes a lot of strength to hide it and I'm so tired of doing this. Sometimes I'm exhausted not only mentaly but olso physically. What can you tell when they ask you why don't you have anybody at the age of 24 and you can't tell the truth?
It's devastating...
Check this out. It's a movie I made. Hope you'll like it. Let me know what you think of it :).Cheers.
Bitwa
Kiedy spostrzegli, że bitwa przegrana,
Nie poddali się, nie wywiesili flagi.
W ich ustach brzmiała modlitwa szeptana,
W obronie wiary dali się zabić.
Gdy stygły ich ciała po bitwie przegranej,
A krew ich przyjęła bitewna gleba,
Ucichły słowa modlitwy szeptanej,
Czy Anioł Śmierci zabrał ich do nieba?
1984
Najpierw przemówił obraz
Potem wyważyli drzwi
Nie dla nas był już bunt i gniew,
Gdyż dano nam strach i śmierć
Dla nich był triumf i radość,
Gdyż dano im władze i siłę.
Zdradziliśmy.
Czasami, gdy śnię
Mam tę liczbę przed oczami.
Kocham Wielkiego Brata!
Dedicated to... dedicated to John Paul II
Time is given
And time is taken
But life once given
ends only on earth
But lasts forever
Your life has ended here
But started
Close to God
Be still my heart
Don't weep
Don't hurt
Because his soul
Lives forever...
In Autumn Mood dedicated to her
Days have passed and leaves have fallen
Seasons have changed earlier this year
I only wish that memories of you
Would go away taken by the autumn wind...
All in the Family dedicated to my godmother...
Goodbye lonely heart
May your journey be light
Goodbye good old friend
Why did you leave so soon?
And there's a better world
we believe you're in
But still we all
Wish you were here.
Well it's some of my stuff. It's nothing special but it's mine :). there's more but maybe later. Hope you like it. Let me know. Cheers. :)
If I had the chance, love
I would not hesitate
To tell you all the things
I never said before
Don't tell me it's too late
Cause I've relied on my illusions
To keep me warm at night
But I denied in my capacity to love
I am willing, to give up this fight
I've been up all night drinking
To drown my sorrow down
Nothing seems to help me since you went away
I'm so tired of this town
Where every tongue is wagging
When every back is turned
Their telling secrets that should never be revealed
There's nothing to be gained from this
But disaster..
Here's a good one..
Did you hear about my friend
He's embarrassed to be seen now
Because we..
Oh no.
Be seen..
If I had the chance love
You know, I would not hesitate
To tell you all the things
I never said before
Don't tell me it's too late
Cause I've relied on my illusions
To keep me warm at night
But I denied in my capacity to love
I am willing, to give up this fight
Oh, I am willing to give up this fight...
I downloaded this song after watching one of the episode of "Alias". Now, I'm addicted to it :). Cheers
Hey, check out www.mojeparodie.blogspot.com. There's my parody of Wiedźmin alnog with The Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter. Hope you'll like it. I know that it might be not really understandable to those who didn't read none of those books so later on i'll write some words about characters showed in the parody :). Have fun. Cheers.
Today, been to Poznan to meet Agnieszka SN i Pszemo. OK we actually been to Kiekrz. Anyway, we met in Kiekrz, we went to the lake, bought a lot of food (if you can call chocolate and prażynki a food). We were sitting, talking, making pictures (Aga please delete my pic!! :)). It was one of those moments when you talk about everything and nothing. We talked 'bout school, plans, girls, guys. If your ears were burning today it must have been us :) (just kidding). Anyway, we're gonna meet on wednesday and somwhere. I guess we all realized that we're a really good pack of friends and I think we shouldn't waste it.
It was cool guys. Thanx a lot!! Luv ya!!
D.E.B.S.
Directed by: Angela Robinson
Screenplay by: Angela Robinson
Starring:
Sara Foster – Amy Bradshaw
Jordana Brewster – Lucy Diamond
Megan Good – Max Brewer
Devon Aoki – Dominique
Jill Ritchie – Janet
Jimmi Simpson – Scud
Geoff Stults – Bobby
Holland Taylor – Ms. Petrie
Michael Clarke Duncan – Mr. Phipps
Jessica Cauffiel – Ninotchka Kaprova
“Speak English or French. Fringlish is not a language”
A movie where bad guys are not so bad, and special agents look like high school students (or Tatu :)). But the movie rocks. I’m addicted to it so I’m afraid that my review might not be objective, but I’ll try :).
“D.E.B.S.” were originally a short movie, but after showing it on Sundance festival Robison decided to make a big screen movie. Bingo!!!
Four D.E.B.S. are to spy on Lucy Diamond a super villain, who is meeting Russian killer Ninotchka Kaprova. Surprisingly, it turns out to be a blind date. Shooting starts D.EBS are chasing Lucy when suddenly one of them, Amy, approaches our super villain. Lucy escapes but she can’t forget about Amy so she decides to go to her and talk to her. And the romance begins.
The movie has a lot of sometimes crazy humor and you just can’t stop laughing. It shows the world where special agents are chosen on the basis of a very top-secret test. Lucy Diamond may shake the whole world with fear but she’s afraid of a one blind date (great Jessica Cauffiel in this scene).
The music is also great in the movie. All songs were chosen very well, they really fit certain scenes. The scene where Jordana sings to Erasure’s “Little Respect” is awesome. I can watch again and again and again and I’m not bored.
I spent great time watching the movie. I liked it so much that I’ve searched many shops to buy it on DVD. And I must say that it was worth it. I mean I’m just waiting for the moment when I say that I don’t wanna see the movie ‘cause I’m bored. I guess that I’ll have to wait. And that’s good, ‘cause Angela Robinson made something great and it’s good to admit that it’s her first big screen movie. Over and out.
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this
You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this
Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this
You kiss me listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
If there's a dark side to you
I haven't seen it
Every good thing you do feels like you mean it
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
And I could get used to this.
He, he, go figure it out :)
Nelly Furtado "Loose"
I must say that it’s... Good. Very good. It starts with a song “Afraid” where Nelly is rapping. Then we have “Maneater” and “Promiscuous” we already know. The further the album goes the more it changes. Nelly swifts form one style to another. First we have hip-hop song then it goes slower just to change into “Te Busque” sang with Juanes (I don’t like this band but I adore the song). Through Spanish mixation with club music to very slow “All Good Things”, where Nelly sing about why all good thing come to an end.
The album is good to listen and to party. Everybody will find something to listen. Personally, I still prefer Furtado’s “Whoa, Nelly” and “Folklore” but I was not disappointed with this album at all. It’s just hip-hop, party and something to listen with somebody you love :).
Evanescence “The Open Door”.
Hmm… What to say? I like it. I like it very much. Evanescence came back and they’re even better. Hard gothic music mixed with Amy Lee’s voice gives a great impression. What I like about Evanescence is that it’s hard rock but you can understand what Amy I singing (‘cause fortunately she is singing not screaming). Texts are good, ballads are ballads but with this rock kick. We can hear piano, choirs, and violins. It’s a good album to listen when you feel angry and you need to listen sth hard. Maybe, it’ll sound strange but when I’m pissed off their music really calms me does although it’s noisy.
What’s surprising after listening the whole album, in the end we get “Good Enough” which is only piano and violins. No guitars, drums and all that. It’s incredible. Yap, you may thing that Evanescence have finished their career but they came back and they’re gonna kick your ass.
Lilly Allen “Alright, Still”.
Lots of laugh!!! She awesome. Fresh with funny texts and music so different in every song that you will not believe that it’s her all the time. From sweet pop melodies through hip-hop to strange rhythms like in “Alfie”. She’s close in texts to The Streets. And that British accent. When I got the album I left it as it was ‘cause I thought it’s gonna be a stupid music for 15 years olds. Fortunately I was wrong. I had a lot of laugh listening to this album. It’s really worth listening. If don’t like this type of music just listen it for the lyrics. You’ll see for yourselves. Cheers.
Yesterday, there was a meeting with Donald Tusk from Platforma Obywatelska. I must say that I went there to see what’s he like and what is he going to talk about. Well, he talked about many things. About our bad situation with Russia and Germany, our problems with ‘twin ducks’ and relationship with the USA. I must say that I agreed with lots of things he said, maybe except building anti-missile shield, ‘cause I’m not sure about it. There were lot of question what does PO is going to do to change the view of Poland from a small, economically backward country to a country West think of a important in politics.
PO has lot of plans but the thing is that until our country is ruled by people, who don’t care ‘bout anything but how to get more and more money for themselves, PO won’t have many chances to change sth. It’s a sad fact that they’re in oppositions and nobody is listening to them. Zyta Gilowska left PO to join Prawi I Sprawiedliwość (Law and Justice) and although everyone in the government said that it was a good decision nobody cared about her. When they had a chance the former Prime Minister Kazimierz Marcinkiewicz kicked her out. Then we have her pointless trail, and now PiS wants her back. What for? To have fun? If she decides to come back then I’ll say that, although she is very well educated person, she is just stupid and naïve.
The 4th Republic of Poland was supposed to be a cheap country but now nothing seems to change into better. I think that PiS is not a trustworthy party at all. Our prime minister, Jarosław Kaczyński, said that they did sth good – the unemployment has fallen thanks to them. LIE!!! The unemployment has fallen ‘cause everybody leaves Poland and goes to the UK. It’s sad that many young people after finishing studies go abroad to clean rooms in hotels or wash dishes. Minister Ziobro wants to build more jail and put people there who are against present government. This is what we should call Law and Justice!!!
Poland starts to change into, sad to say, one of totalitarian countries like Byelorussia. They have Lukashenko, we have Kaczynski brothers. According to PiS, now I’m insulting the President and the Prime Minister, and probably I should be put into jail for that but, I always believed there is a freedom of speech, so I’m gonna use it as long as I can . I think I should be put a jail also for being a homosexual which means, according to PiS and Liga Polskich Rodzin (the League of Polish Families), that I’m a pedophile and necrophiliac. Thank you PiS and LPR for making me become aware how dangerous I am to the society.
Anyway, if we have earlier elections I hope that PiS, LPR or Samoobrona won’t win. I’m sure that I’m gonna vote on PO ‘cause I agree that we should build better diplomatic relations with Germany, and what comes with that with Russia.. we should give companies to build freely in Poland new factories, freeways ‘cause it’ll give us a chance to develop. I also agree with our military relation with the USA, and that we should look at other, better developed, countries and take what’s best from them so we could use it here, in Poland. That’s all. Cheers.
P.S. Sorry for being chaotic in this post, but you know me, I’m not a very well-organized person :).
Hey, you all!!! Yeah, I'm still alive but we don't have to kill animals Pszemo to celebrate. we're gonna see on Tuesday :). Well, I'm not going back to school or at least not now. It's good to know that people remember about you. I thought that thre will be no comments 'cause nobody reads my blog anymore. Fortyunately I was wrong.
Been asking for a full time job paid with real money, 'cause stuff I do is not good :). Anyway, now that i see that someone is reading my crap :). So later I will try to write more about what's up with me :). Cheers.
P.S. How wonderful life is now medusas are not in my world :).
Well, here I am again :). Maybe I won't be writing very often but I don't know if someone is reading it. Anyway, I'm still alive (suprisingly to me :P), earning my own money :). My life is still a mess but I don't think it's gonna ever change 'cause that's the way I am. It's the same as my room. It's clean outside but open the closet and somthing will surely fall on your head :). But I'm trying, believe me, I'm trying my best. I guess I'm doing something wrong :).
I'm still an optimist amd i always will be. I'm still fighting with my medusas, but this time I'm winning. I know what I'm allergic to so I just don't eat those items (and there's a lot of it). The last time I saw medusa on me was long time ago in a galaxy far far away :).
That's it for now, see you soon I hope. Cheers :).
Well, we had the best movie ever so why not have a book? This is my top 10:
10. "False Dawn" (Przedswit) by Chelsea Quinn Yarbro - nothing special but there's something in the book I really liked. If you have a chance read it 'cause it's worth it.
09. "Jakub Wędrowycz" by Anrzej Pilipuk - crazy, funny, ironic. Jakub is the best as a character in a book but also as a egzorcist. If I ever meet a vampire, zobie or ghost I'll call him :).
08. "La Sombra del Viento" (Cień Wiatru) by Carlos Luiz Zafon - incredible book, there's everything you need: love, hate, murder, mystery. Wow!
07. "Joan of Arc" (Joanna d'Arc) by Mark Twain - one of my favourite writers and my favourite historical person. Perfect.
06. Andre Norton's books - whether you like her or not. I adore her works.
05. Patricia Cornwell's books - I don't like thrillers but she's an exception.
04. "La casa de los espíritus" (Dom Dusz) by Isabel Allende - magical and melancholical. Allende's best work.
03. "Carol" aka "The Price of Salt" (Carol) by Patricia Highsmith - the book that after finishing it I started to read all over again. I love it.
02. "Wiedźmin" by Andrzej Sapkowski - I'm addicted to it and you don't need to know more. Read it.
01. "Fried Green Toamtoes" (Smażone Zielone Pomidory) by Fannie Flagg - after the book I wanted to move back in the past to Whistle Stop and spend some time there with the people, whom I loved although they're not real.
The Man Comes Around by Johnny Cash
And I heard as it were the noise of thunder
One of the four beasts saying come and see and I saw
And behold a white horse
There's a man going around taking names and he decides
Who to free and who to blame every body won't be treated
Quite the same there will be a golden ladder reaching down
When the man comes around
The hairs on your arm will stand up at the terror in each
Sip and each sup will you partake of that last offered cup
Or disappear into the potter's groundWhen the man comes around
CHORUS
Hear the trumpets hear the pipers one hundred million angels singing
Multitudes are marching to a big kettledrum
Voices calling and voices crying
Some are born and some are dying
Its alpha and omegas kingdom come
And the whirlwind is in the thorn trees
The virgins are all trimming their wicks
The whirlwind is in the thorn trees
It's hard for thee to kick against the pricks
Till Armageddon no shalom no shalom
Then the father hen will call his chicken's home
The wise man will bow down before the thorn and at his feet
They will cast the golden crownsWhen the man comes around
Whoever is unjust let him be unjust still
Whoever is righteous let him be righteous still
Whoever is filthy let him be filthy stillListen to the words long written down
When the man comes around
CHORUS
Hear the trumpets hear the pipers one hundred million angels singing
Multitudes are marching to a big kettledrum
Voices calling and voices crying
Some are born and some are dying
Its alpha and omegas kingdom come
And the whirlwind is in the thorn trees
The virgins are all trimming their wicks
The whirlwind is in the thorn trees
It's hard for thee to kick against the pricks
In measured hundred weight and penny pound
When the man comes around
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts
And I looked and behold, a pale horse
And it's name it said on him was Death
And Hell followed with him.
Delia's Gone by Johnny Cash
Delia, oh, Delia
Delia all my life
If I hadn't have shot poor Delia
I'd have had her for my wife
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone
I went up to Memphis
And I met Delia there
Found her in her parlor
And I tied to her chair
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone
She was low down and trifling
And she was cold and mean
Kind of evil make me want to
Grab my sub machine
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone
First time I shot her
I shot her in the side
Hard to watch her suffer
But with the second shot she died
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone
But jailer, oh, jailer
Jailer, I can't sleep '
Cause all around my bedside
I hear the patter of Delia's feet
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone
So if you woman's devilish
You can let her run
Or you can bring her down and do her
Like Delia got done
Delia's gone, one more round
Delia's gone.
I adore Johnny Cash, especially those two songs. "The Man Comes Around" was used in "Dawn of the Dead" by Zack Snyder and I must say it fitted the movie very well. The armageddon has come :) and "Delia's Gone" is just incredibly ironic and, maybe it'll sound brutal, also funny. But that's Johnny Cash :)
Cheers.
WHICH TYPE OF TEACHER ARE YOU? 
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Nauczciel filozof:
- Wiem, że nic nie wiesz.
Nauczyciel Roentgen:
- Widzę, że nic nie wiesz.
Nauczyciel prognostyk:
- Do niczego sie nie nadajecie. Zobaczycie, skończycie na bruku.
Nauczyciel inkwizytor:
- Widzisz, a jednak nie wiesz.
Nauczyciel pesymista:
- I tak sie tego nie nauczysz.
Nauczyciel esteta:
- Człowiek, który tak wygląda w ogóle nie powinien przychodzić do szkoły.
Nauczyciel Hamlet:
- Wiesz, albo nie wiesz.
Nauczyciel katastrofista:
- Dzieli nas przepasć.
Well this is the parody of Luc Besson's "Leon". Enjoy :). If you want more just log on to Natalie Portman's side (the address is in links), go down and you'll see the link "NP. comic", have fun :).Cheers.
dedicated to Kaja
Why I love "Leon"?
Well it's not because of Natalie Portman because when I saw this movie for the 1st time I didn't know who she was :). I saw the movie in 1995 or 1996 when I was on my vacation at my family. My cousin rented the movie, but 1st I didn't want to see it 'cause I thought it's a French crap (but to mention I saw Besson's "La Femme Nikita" a few years before and I liked it very much) :). Fortunatelly, I was wrong. So I was sitting in a room slashing and killing monsters in"Quake" and Patryk, my cousin, was watching the movie. When I got bored with the game I decided to go and see at least a bit of the movie. I saw it from the moment when SWAT attacks Leon's appartment. I was stunned with what i saw so when I returned home I rented "Leon" and watched it. WOW!!! I just fell in love with the movie. Incredible Jean Reno as Leon ,amazing Gary Oldman as officer Stansfield and perfect Natalie Portman as Mathilda. 3 great creations.
I saw the movie more than 10 times and I still like watching it. Fortunatelly I've go the director's cut version that is something about 30 minutes longer. Then my friend bought me a soundtrack by Eric Serra. It's amazing. That was the moment when I bought Serra's "Joan of Arc", "The Fifth Element" and "La Femme Nikita". He's great. Anyway, thanx to "Leon" I 'met' Natalie Portman, who is now my favourite actress :).
Well, I guess that's it :). Cheers.
I don't have one genre I like. It all depends on my humor.
When I wanna cry I watch "Boys on the Side" and "Fried Green Tomatoes".
When I wanna laugh I watch comedies, mainly parodies (but not Scary Movie - terible crap except the 3rd part). I remember when I was watching "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" I don't remember how many times I had to pause the movie to laugh out :). Love it.
When I want a stupid action movie I watch "XxX" 'cause it's stupid and has a lot of action and what's more Asia Argento is there :D.
My favourite horrors are those oldies made by George A. Romero, Wes Craven or Tob Hooper especially "The Night of the Dead", "People Under the Stairs", "Deadly Friend" (I cried at the end of this horror) and of course "Army of Darkness by Sam Raimi. I really hate new horror movies. They're not scary at all, well maybe except "Blair Witch Project" and Japanese version of "The Ring" 'cause the American version sucks.
My favourite comic based movie is "X-Men" but as I said in previous post I love "X-Men" and not only the movie but also comic. It makes you laugh, it makes you angry, it makes you cry. It's all there. And Emma Frost....wow, but unfortunatelly she's not in a movie :(. I hated "The Punisher" or "The Hulk" but I never liked those comics :).
My favourite animated movie are "The Ghost in the Shell" by Mamoru Oshii and "Neon Genesis Evangelion by GAINAX. Someone said that life ia a story. If it's true than "Evangelion" is my life. Also, I like "The Lion King" :) but Japanese animation rulez :).
From thrillers I think the best is "Natural Born Killers" by Oliver Stone. WOW! Also, "Kalifornia" by Dominic Sena (great Brad Pitt and Juliette Lewis).
Romantic movies are....hmmmm.... "Brokeback Mountain" by Ang Lee, "Where the Heart Is" by Matt Williams (awfully sweet but I love it). I can't recall more 'cause I don't like such movies :).
Historical movies are "Elizabeth" by Shekhar Kapur, "Joan of Arc" by Luc Besson (he lies about her life in this movie but it's good to watch) and more.
Sci-fi are "Star Wars" and "Star Trek" (ehh, captain Jean-Luc Picard) , Event Horizon", "The Planet of the Apes" (old version).
Fantasy? "Neverending Story", I think the movie is better than the book, but only the first part. "The Lord of the Rings" and... I just love fantasy so I guess almost everything :).
And finally serials. Hmm... "ER", "Xena:Warrior Princess" (a lot of subtext :D), "Alias", "Lost" and...that's all you need to know :).
O.K. that's it 'cause you probably are sleeping right now (I hope not) :). What can I say? I'm a movie addict and I could talk about it 24/7 :). Cheers.
P.S. I guess this is the longest post I've written :). Sorry for that.
This post was proposed by Poul. It is for you to decide,which movie is the best ever. He decided that it is "Pi" by Darren Arofonsky. And what do you think?
I don't have one and only movie I like 'cause I love movies, but you know it :). I decided to make a list of 10 movies I enjoy watching. OK here we go.
10. X-Men (all parts because I'm addicted to it :))
09. Leon by Luc Besson
08. The House of the Spirits by Billie August
07. Saint-Cyr by Patricia Mazuy
06. Fried Green Tomatoes by Jon Avnet
05. Garden State by Zach Braff
04. Kalifornia by Dominic Sena
03. Bram Stoker's Dracula by Francis Ford Coppola
02. Star Wars by John Lucas (although I hate The Phantom Menace)
01. The Lord of the Rings by Peter Jackson
The numbers do not tell that I like one movie more than another and those ten are just the tip of an iceberg 'cause I've watched to many good movies in my life. I'm addicted to Natalie Portman so I watch every movie of her, I adore Asia Argento, Sarah Polley, Juliette Lewis and Famke Janssen. Four good but underestimated actresses. If it comes to guys than we have Colin Firth, Victor Garber and Alan Rickman.
But stickin to the topic write what are your favourite movies. Here in comments or maybe on your blog. Cheers.
I believe that one day my parents will be able to learn the truth about me and they won't condemn me...
I believe that those friendships I have will last very long and I won't lose them after ten years as it happened to me few months ago :(.
I believe that I will finally find a way in my life.
I believe in many things but I'm not gonna tell you everything :).
That's me when when I was little :).
That's me when I was six with my bro and parents :). Look at my hair cut!! ;)
That's my grandmom. She's taught me a lot and she still teaches me a lot about life. I wanted to show you the pic of my grandfather but the only one I have is not good to publish, trust me :).
This is the photo of my father. That's the little guy in the middle :). He's between his parents and behind them are my dad's sibilings :). The oldest one was this guy, uncle Bolek, on the right. There was 26 years of difference between my dad and him :). Suprising ha?
The girl on the right is my mom with her school friends :). Long ago in a galaxy far far away... ;)
And this is me when I was four and my seven year old brother, Peter :). My protector in primary school when others were picking on me. Of course he was hitting other boys 'cause he believed that he was the only one, who can pick on me :). But I still like that guy :).
Każdy policjant poświadczy, że homoseksualiści to krąg niemal w 100 proc. pokrywający się z środowiskiem pedofilskim - twierdzi poseł Wierzejski. Poseł nie rezygnuje z obraźliwego tonu, oskarżając środowiska homoseksualne o nieuprawnione ataki na LPR.
That's a bit taken from TVN24 News. What the f***k is wrong with this country??? Almost 100%?? That is interesting, I'm not a pedophile but maybe I'm not in those 100% :). Well, I shouldn't be so shocked when a country is ruled by 2 ducks that can't even kwack properly, The Minister of Education (sic!) is a moron, we have a coalition with a person having been charged and sentenced in the past, who thinks white and red ties are still modern ;).
Mrs. Lewandowska said that we should vote against them and I agree but the problem is that it's too late for that. All we can do now is wait 4 years, but I can bet that another choice will be also bad :/.
After listening all this news my agression rose from 2 to 35. The next time I will play 'Worms' I'll name all my opponents after our politicians :).
Is it really my fault? I didn't choose it. I tried to change it but it's just not me. I don't wanna lie to myself about it, I can lie to other people 'cause I'm afraid what their reaction might be, but I'm not gonna pretend that I can live like a normal person (whatever 'normal' means)!!!
So to all reading it: if you have something against me and me being a lesbian just tell me that in my face and not behind my back.
Thanx to my all friends that support me. Luv ya guys :)
Yesterday I've been talking to a guy on the Internet. Suddenly, he asked me what I think of gay people. I asnwered that I have nothing against them as they're the same as he is and have the same problems. Wow, what happened next was a World War 3! He told me that "I should be locked in a camp with the queer cattle and killed" (that's his words).
Who teaches them such hatred? Parents? School? Maybe I missed something, but I just can't recal the lesson of intolerance at school or home. All the people I know are tolerant and have nothing against (or almost nothing against) homosexuals.
I realized that moment that one day my ass can be kicked by some people just because I have different opinion. I'm not saying that I go to all parades and such stuff, but I think that everyone has a right to live no matter if you are gay, lesbian,catholic, muslim etc.
It's like the situation when a lady in a tram told me I'm a pervert just because I was reading a book. Yes, it was a lesbian book, but c'mon I wasn't readingporno! I told the lady not to read my book because I'm not reading hers.
I just don't find any more words to those situations. JUST LET ME BE ME!!!
But is it possible in the country ruled by xeno and homophobs? I don't think so.
Yesterday I went shopping with Ania Zasimowicz. It was a lot of fun especially buying a tooth brush :). We were standing in front of shellves with brushes and we couldn't decide wich one to choose. Well, at least Ania couldn't decide 'cause I was there just for fun. The problem was that there were just too many brushes. You stand there and all you need is a brush but the choice is so enormous that you waste half an hour to buy it. Anyway, finally Ania chose her brush and when we were walking she asked me if I liked the color. I honestly said that I didn't like it and I would buy the purple one. She said that she likes her new brush but a minute later we returned to change it into a purple one :). There was no problem with buying the rest staff she needed (thankully).
I spend a very good time there although I don't like malls but I guess that if you go there with people you can have fun with it might be a great adventure. :).
Ania if you ever want me to go to Tesco just let me know :)
Cheers.
I found this on Monika's blog.
Ears(S)in consciousness - talkative, remembers jokes, learn by conversations and by listening, sometimes “talk for the sake of talking” but he can also hurt others with his word(remember? consciousness is without emotions)
Ears(S) in Unconsciousness - difficulty with concentrating while listening (without seeing or moving) poor at telling jokes (that is sooooooooooo untrue in my case), responds later than others, very sensitive to any disturbing sounds (easy to put him off his stride) Speaks chaotically since he thinks using images
Movement(M) in consciousness - constantly needs to move, gesticulates, likes comfortable clothes,sensitive body (whatever it means)
Eyes(E) in sub consciousness- problems with keeping eye contact
Great! Not only doctors diagnosed slight OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder but in my case it's without Obsessive) when I was a kid but now I see I'm far more messed up than I thought!!! Fortunatelly I don't have huge problems with it as I just have to count to 100 :). I count especially lines on the road and trees when i'm in a car, which is quite tireing sometimes. Well, that's it folks :).
Hmmmm... I really don't remember. I guess it was Shakespear's "Macbeth" or "Hamlet". Anyway it was a challenge 'cause I didn't know English as good as now. I read too many books to remember which one was 1st. To be honest I read a lot. I read everytime I can, in a bus, tram, train, milk bars. Everywhere I can. And I read everything I get in my hands :) Romances, comedies, fantasy, horrors, comic books, everything! Just can't help it. And it's all my moms fault ;). But I'm thankful for that. Ech, those nights spent on reading :).
"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that flow
I am the sunlight on my own grave
I am a gentle autumn rain
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight
do not stand at my grave and cry
do not stand at my grave and cry
do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there I did not die
(Spoken)
man as yet is half grown
Even his flower stem has not appeared yet
He’s all leaves and roots without a sign of stem in sight
Blossoming, establishing a new pure relationship with the cosmos
It is the sign of heaven.
It’s the sign of the cobra.
It’s the sign of a man who knows himself royally.
Crowned with the sun.
His feet gripping the earth as he goes.
We have arrived.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there I did not die.
I am not there I did not die."
I love listenig to it when I'm in a sleepy and melancholic mood :). It cheers my up though it might seem strange. :)
1. Nora,my dog,sick now and I'm eating my nails so nervous I am. Damn she's with me for 15 years!!! I can't lose her! Who will then jump into my bed at nightr, wake me up at 3 to go out for a walk or stink?? We'll see...
2. I thought I met the person of my life and then... "I have somebody".Why do I always have such a bad luck in love?? What's wrong with me?? Grrrrrrrr. Well I'll keep looking, there r a lot of fish in the sea :). Buahahahahaha.
3. Just to have # 3 :P
I have finally seen "V for Vendetta". Hmmm don't know what 2 think 'bout it. For sure comic book was better, more complex and dark but still it's a good movie. From 1-6 i'll give it 4. Hugo Weaving can kill you with his voice. He's like Alan Rickman. Two guys that can play with voice. Natalie Portman?? Hmmm I'm not objective but she was perfect (as usual). Still like her more with hair than without :). The movie itself has a lot of action and the scene with blowing the Parliament up is incredible. Really worth seeing.
After Bydgoszcz. It was a real hit!!! :) We've made a lot of mistakes but people didn't know 'bout it. :) After the performance there was a party. To be honest I'm a local star :). I got so many good opinions about the play and my role that I feel almost like Natalie Portman ;P. The only difference between us is that they don't pay me for playing :(. Anyway, me gonna go there next year and we're gonna crush them totally :) Buahahaha. Party was perfect, people were cool, JC came although he said he wouldn't and that is very good 'cause party without him would be incomplete :). I luv u all guys!!! :*
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
I can love
But I need his heart
I am strong even on my own
But from him I never want to part
He's been there since the very start
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
Bless the day he came to be
Angel's wings carried him to me
Heavenly
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
That's the song that still gives me hope :)
So long and thanx for the fish. If only I had enough courage I'd do that. My moods are killing me. I laugh but then I suddenly feel down. I know what is wrong but I can't change it. Oh, well this was suppose to be a funny blog but it isn't. Maybe later. I promise to do my best. :)
I feel terrible. I'm so stupid I just can believe it. Anyway, I don't care about anything. I just wanna dissapear or leave somwhere people don't know me. Nobody cares about me so why should I care about anything or anyone? I hide everything I am because of our so f*****g tolerant society, parents, school and so on... Damn I don't know what to do with myself. I know nothing and I just don't seem to care. School is no longer what it used to be. Or maybe I'm just overreacting. Nikt mnie nie kocha, nikt mnie nie lubi, nie mam przyjaciół, nawet pies do mnie nie przychodzi :(. I mean she comes but she stinks and deaf and sleeps all the time. Sorry for this pesimistic post but sometimes even optimistics have to rest and feel sad :).
Well, my so long not seen medusas are finally back ;). They're on my cheeks and back. They itch and soon I think I'm gonna bite my... leg :D. I'm Going to Bydgoszcz next week and I have to get rid of them. Grrrrrr. I can have them on my legs but face? C'mon it's not fair!!!
I don't know what to write. But at least the painting is nice :) It's Edward Hopper's "Summertime". I love this guy.
Well, my medusas are still on my body but i got a ointment and they don't attack :). I won the battle but not war. They come and go but next week the real battle will start. Buahahahahaha. I'm the Lady of the Medusas!!!! :D. And medusas must be destroyed!
Buahahahaha this is my first post :). Finally back 2 school after a sickness :/. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired ;P. I saw "Michael Flatley's Lord of the Dance - Feet of Flames" Oh my God!!! I didn't know you can move your feet sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fast. Wow! This was cool. Anyway I recorded it and watch some parts like 3 times a day :). Damn I'm addicted. That's it for now.
